Thursday, July 30, 2015

A POEM BY GARY G PELOW, THE BOREDOM

The boredom of my life is felt strongly today, I do not know how to stay busy,
there is nothing to be done, no schedule to follow, my body is lethargic in the boredom.  I move moment by moment to nowhere in particular, the heat of todays
sun beating down on me causing  me to sweat, to seat in the boredom of my life,
The fans are on, yet the heat continues to torment me in my boredom, there seems
to be no purpose in my life or direction, I float place to place like a beach ball on
the waves of the ocean, with no  discernable goal.  I hate this fuckin, thiss fucking
life, yet I do not have the courage to end it, to destroy it and my pain, yet I will
not physically end it , I flounder about in physical and mental suffering in my
psychosis, this psychosis that adds to my torment, torment of the heat, my troubled
mind.  The ironic thing is that I can not function any better in tthe bitter cold of
winter and blizzars that makes breathing difficult, in fact, this  passed winter I
passed out and fell in to two feet of snow, no one helped, they saw and did nothing,
you see I am alone and always will be alone, a bored loser.

Sunday, July 26, 2015

A POEM BY GARY G PELOW, THE LEFT

It is a frightening thing, the left wing of the bell hooks and its version of feminism, they make my skin crawl like insects are burrowing into my flesh, they' the feminists
are liars, their base is the base of radical marxism, they do not truly fight for the rights
of women, they instead seek to undermine democracy with the reintroduction
of segregation, they yell and scream in favor of hate of a nonexistent patriarchy,
they seek to confuse and destroy anyone or any philosophy that is opposing them,
I oppose them and their hatred of democracy, their racism in the guise of womens rights, they seek division of the free world and its values of freedom, they seek to destroy freedom of speech by shutting down the voices that seek freedom and speak openly against the radical feminism of bigotry and hate, they split the races in two, they destroy others through false words, words of yelling and screaming instead of rational discourse, they seek to divide the United States by race and gender, and their
goal is to control you with fake accusations of hate and bigotry, they label opponents as racists of the nonexistent white patriarchy that does not exist, I urge you to not listen to them, bell hooks and the feminist industry that sells hate for cash, together we will defeat them.

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

A POEM BY AUTHOR/POET GARY G PELOW, LIARS

Why do you lie Sarkeesian? Why does the infamous bell hooks lie?
There is an evil in our mist, a disguised monster of lies,
about a fake feminist movement, it claims of standing up as feminists
is a lie, this lie, brought to you by the radicals of marxism Anita Sarkeesian,
they masquerade as supporters of women, they are lying to you,
they seek only control of other womens choices, they want to create
a society of destruction womens personal freedom and  choices by
instituting a radical destruction of society, rebuilt as a marxist
society to control women into their version of femininism
that is in practice, will produce results much like white supremacy,
dictatorship is dictatorship regardless of the mask it wears,
I hope women are both discerning and brave, brave enough
to see the monster of lies and fight it for the sham that it is,
men and women must unite, all races must unite, but not as
marxists, not as liars, please fight this monster with me,
fight it to protect the true soul of feminism hijacked by
psychotic extremists, I know I am intimately aquainted
with psychosis, do not get caught up in the lies of radicalism,
be a thinker, a critical one, one that examines evidence for a position instead
of lies based on hateful emotion.











Tuesday, July 14, 2015

A POEM BY AUTHOR POET GARY G PELOW, INDEPENDENCE DY.

Who is in control? The psychosis, or relatives or friends? Perhaps no one
is in control when psychosis comes to a person, or maybe the people in control
are family and friends, there by robbing the independence and automony of the
sick in mind.  There is nothing like the psychiatric slavery of control by others that wounds the sick, stealing self esteem.  I struggle myself to balance help from others
and my personal freedom and control over my own destiny, setting my own goals
within reason, and pursue those goals and dreams.  Do not I deserve love and companionship? Do not I have a right to try employment within the realities of
my limitations? I understand schizophrenia helps to limit someone, but does not
totally destroy a persons capacity to chase and accomplish dreams and goals set
by oneself and not to others who mean well, but come off as mean to us the sick

Friday, July 10, 2015

A POEM BY AUTHOR/POET GARY G PELOW, THE WALK.

I walk down the street of insanity, he has not paid the money he owes me,
as a coward he avoids me, he is a fucking asshole, with his yelling and screaming and drinking and drugging, I can not stand this motherfucker, so fucking arrogant is he, robbing me of money and respect, trying to use me to make his life more cozy leaving me in the dirt to languish to death in the dust, my hands are trembling, I walk with fear and panic, my psychotic way of thinking is crushing me and tearing me apart as I blindly walk and stumble through life with fear and suspiciousness from others that want to accuse me of things not done, to puniish me for nothing, I am innocent of all charges what ever they maybe, I scream inside from fear and anger, I AM TIRED, YET SLEEP DOES NOT COME AND ADDS TO MY PAIN AND EMPTINESS.  I walk with my hands and body shaking in fear, fear and psychosis I would not want to wish on my worst enemy, I AM ALONE!

Tuesday, July 7, 2015

A POEM BY AUTHOR/POET GARY G PELOW, STROKE OF LUCK

It is boiling today, the sun is pounding the city of Rochester , New York this day,
July seventh, 2015, the sun rips into the skin with seering heat on the schizophrenic
that swallows pills to control voices, paranoia and delusions, necessary to function
everyday, the sun has no mercy even on the normal of mind but is especially cruel on the ill of mind, blocking melotonin and raising body temperature and depleteing the body of water.  The ultraviolet rays burn and scorch the skin, yet even on cloudy days that are hot, heat stroke and dehydration still happen, the visibility of the sun is
not required to have the heat steal your bodys salt and water. Over time, the heat depletes you of ability to move or excercise, however they may not be wise to do in the heat or sun anyway, I do not understand the fanatics who run in ninety degree
temperatures, they are gambling with their lives in the open furnace of outdoors.
JESUS FUCKING CHRIST IT IS HOT TODAY, very uncompfortable, very dangerous, and yes I used the name of your imaginary friend Jesus in vain, no matter he is just a fairy tale of the desperate afraid of death and oblivion, besides, in this heat it is very difficult to believe in GOD of any stripes.

Saturday, July 4, 2015

A POEM BY AUTHOR/POET GARY G PELOW, RIGHT/LEFT WING NUTS.

The damaging effect of right/left wing stupidity on the mentally ill is extremely dangerous in deed, the right hand wants to cut funding, the left hand leaves people homeless in the name of liberty, to not be incarcerated, in hospitals ironically they are now warehoused in jails and prisons, left wing deinstitutionism has failed, for 40 fucking years, hospitals close, people are turned away from hospitals, to be alone on the street in the sweltering heat of summer and subzero temperatures of winter. This
situation is unfair to correction officers, they are not docs or nurses, yet they are forced by circumstance to act as such in prisons and jails, the new asylums.  I have schizophrenia, I am lucky, I have a place to live, I am lucid enough to handle my own money and bills, on medications of course. the times are less difficult when you have a roof over you, EVEN IF IT IS A HOSPITAL YOU LIVE IN.  The far right wants to abandon the mentally ill to live in confusion and pain expecting over taxed churches to fill the void of less governmental help for the sick in mind, believe me these churches, synagouges and mosques try their best to get down and in the gutter to help  their efforts are heroic and needed, yet they can not due what the government can, where do you stand or sleep  when churches are pushed to the breaking point, reluctantly turning people away from help, this is brought to you by the far right.

Friday, July 3, 2015

A POEM BY AUTHOR/POET GARY G PELOW, FASCISM BY BLOG.

They are extremely dangerous to freedom and free speech or thought,
they blog intensely dangerous rhetoric, these feminist social justice warriors who use the social justice label as a  means to shame and shut up their opponents,
they fight over ridiculous jokes and cartoon characters, things done in jest to them,
these feminist fascists, are a reason to berate and threaten their opponents,
getting peole fired from their jobs, or make false accusations online to
attempt to destroy falsely the reputations, to cause gossip, you see there is no
social justce from these feminists, that is just slight of hand, fake feminist issues
to destroy others, accusing them of racism and mysoginy where there is none,
they complain about cartoons in video games as somehow being sexist, ignoring
real oppression of vulnerable women who have no voice, like women with
psychiatric problems in jail or living on the streets, these women on the outside
of sanity looking in.  FREE THOUGHT BLOGS AT FREETHOUGHTBLOGS.COM IS AN EXAMPLE OF VICIOUS FEMINIST VIPERS WHO LIE AND ABUSE OTHERS.

Thursday, July 2, 2015

A POEM BY AUTHOR/POET GARY G PELOW, SECOND CHANCE

I have made great errors and poor decisions in my life, I will blame no one
but myself, I have often brought my own misery and suffering, I plead guilty
as charged.  I will try to do whats right from now on, I beg the universe to
give me a second chance, to allow me time to make up for my evil deeds,
there is so much begging for forgiveness from all who I may have hurt
that I must strive for in a granted second chance, to make amends to people
harmed by my nonvirtuos behavior. The pain and suffering of victims is
to be laid at my door step, not others, oh, I have not hurt anyone physically,
psychologicly I have cuased great harm to others, as well as pain of mind and
spirit, the most painful kind of harm, others have cried in anguish because of
me, if I am granted a second chance by providence or karma, I will work
diligently to try to make amends to everyone that I have caused harm to,
as AA likes to say, to repent of evil deeds and asking for forgiveness from all
victims that are in pain that I have caused. PAIN OF SPIRIT AND MIND IS CRIPPLING TO ONES LIFE AND ACTIVITIES, CRIPPLING TO ANY CHANCE OF SUCCESS.
I wish to paralyze no one, not others or myself, I only seek to be given a second chance at being forgiven.